I just can't get my head out from you, your used to type "ILY" messages every night, your pillowy soft shoulders and every single thing of you. I just don't get why would that sort of dramatic scene happened between us. I have been missing you everyday when it comes to night time. Do you know why? Remember we could only see each other @ Elc tuition center night classes.
Our first chapter of story began in late July of year 2008. We started to text each other more than twice every week. At that time, I couldn't accept your love-formable feeling because I was thinking of I still need plenty of time to know more about you. Time flew really quick as if Mr. time was in a hurry to rush to the end of marathon. We were in the same English and Physics tuitions in our form four year yet we never talked to each other. Unless you, Selwyn, Eric, Kiat, Jenny and I were grouped together to do in-class activities. And year 2009 was a memorable year to me but what about you?
We were again in the same English tuition class but you sat one row behind me. I will never forget we started our love story on 29th April, which was 10 days after your birthday! You started to swift seat beside me and I felt secure as if I was protected by you. Those fightings never happened between us, right? We used to call each other every friday or saturday nights. We could always talked on the phone for hours but your cell phone always ran out of battery for several times. The sweetest thing was that you know that I couldn not speak good hokkien. But you kept on persuading me to talk with you by using Hokkien dialect. I even remembered I was a little too shy to say out "ILY" to you when it was time to hang up the phone but I managed to tell you I Love You at last. I used to charge my phone to full battery so I could crap with you the whole night long.
But after the last MSN message we had on the 12th of December, where have you gone? Why there wasn't any message from you anymore! Do you know that I waited for you to text me or to give me a call everyday! But things revealed until one of your friends chatted with me through facebook! Do you understand how I felt?! It was like falling down from heaven to the deepest hole in hell. And yet, you never showed up by lending me a hand or to catch me!
I only knew what was going on after I saw a photo of you and her in her facebook profile. I thought it was my hallucination at first but I knew it wasn't. You dumped me without letting me know? Why didn't you send me a break up message and told me you weren't in love with me anymore! You should tell me face to face, at least. I am still blaming you why didn't you text me to tell me you are in a relationship with her! Maybe leaving me behing was a good thing for you because you knew I will be in Perth next year. But I just don't get why you leave me without letting me to know the truth. I wondered you totally have no confidence over long distance relationship or other reasons you can come up with?! I clearly understand the meaning of "letting go of your beloved if you really love him" after you left me because I knew it was time for me to live a single life without you!
From today ahead, we will become strangers although we will possibly meet each other one day because Kuching isn't that big mar. I will be back in Perth this sunday and your birthday falls on next Monday. I feel so sorry to myself because everything about you just couldn't rub off from my mind.
Happy birthday in advance, HCP!
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